if her legs aren’t shaking when you’re done then you’re not done

(via bluellamas)


wrote this at 06/12/2014 6:32pm

i am losing it.

11:30 AM
I’m hopeless without you. You made me complete. You left me almost a full day ago. You promised you’d love me until the world is nonexistent and the memory of humanity has faded. So I’ll wait until you get back because a promise is a promise, right?

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12:05 AM
I miss you so much. I’m sorry. I don’t know what I’m sorry about but I am and all I know is that I need you back. I need you to be mine again. What did I do wrong?

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12:46 AM
I just wanted to let you know that I drank six shots of vodka to try and take away the pain and it burned my throat but nothing will burn as much as those words you said to me twenty-four hours ago. They are still fresh wounds and I will always have the scars.

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1:38 AM
Why the fuck am I saying sorry? You’re the one who ripped my heart out of my chest. You’re the one who poured gasoline all over me and threw a match at my helpless body and watched me burn. You’re the reason why I’m sitting here, drunk, at 1:40 in the morning crying my eyes out trying to ease the pain.

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2:35 AM
You’re the one who should be on your knees begging for my forgiveness.

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6:30 AM
I am so sorry. Please answer me.



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"I was 15 years old, laying on my bedroom floor, shaking and trying to shove my heart back into my chest after you told me you didn’t love me anymore and I’m covered in scars and there are still nights when I find myself trying to hold my bones together with bleeding hands and breathing gets hard but fuck, if I can survive you and the way you tore me apart I can survive anything."
"I loved you
harder than I hated
and that’s how
I knew I was
in trouble."
"Dear future child
If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair
Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did
Please climb onto my bed
And I will hold you until the demons sleep
If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move
I won’t force you
I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite tv show and I will remind you of your importance
If you feel as if you have no purpose
I will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too
When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore
I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers
But that five years later
When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room
I realised that you were why I had been holding on
Without realising it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is?
So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta
I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too
Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings
As my mother was to mine."


it’s so sad when you crave someone you can’t have

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i tried

idk i made another one